Hip-Hop Green School Rocks

Last year at Super Summer, I was a Yellow School TL. I thought that was the best summer of my life. That's what I get for thinking. Granted, I did meet one of my best friends ever, and have two of the best deans, but last year at Super Summer was not the best summer of my life, I just thought it was.


Ever since Super Summer ended last year, I had been pleading with God to be in Yellow School again. That's all I wanted--just to be a Yellow School TL, well any color really, any color BUT Green. I know that this may sound strange, but for reasons I won't state here, I had zero desire to be in Green School. I just knew that if I was a Green School TL that I would be miserable the whole week and I wouldn't grow any closer to God. I wanted so strongly not to be in Green School, that when I got the e-mail telling me that I was, I cried. That's right--21 years old and I cried because I didn't get the color I wanted. That's how wrapped up I was in myself and my plans for my summer, at no point did it cross my mind that this is where the Father wanted me, and He wanted me there for good reason.


It was this year at Super Summer, in a color and situation that I did not want to be in, that God punched me in the face with how much I idolize myself. I have spent the last 21 years of my life, vainly attempting to be glory to myself for being a "good Christian". WOW. Are you kidding me? I was so wrapped up in doing the right thing and saying the right thing and acting perfectly great when I was nowhere close because I thought that's what I was supposed to do. Instead of that bringing glory to my Father though, I allowed people to glorify me for it. People would compliment me on my great attitude, my joyful heart, or my positive outlook, and I would gratefully accept it. Allowing my head to grow larger and larger and letting zero glory go to my Father. I would pride myself on being able to hold things in and being "tough". I would pride myself on my five minute quiet times because, hey, at least I was reading my Bible--that was way better than most people. I would pray before I went to sleep, sometimes before I ate, and I would pray with my friends that were hurting, and I thought that was stinkin' awesome. My friends would ask me for scripture references and I would be glorified in the fact that I knew them, but where was Christ in all of this? He was in the little corner of my heart that I stored Him away in until I needed Him for something. I never let Him come out, so that I could bring Him glory. It was all about me. Me. Me. ME.


God has this awesome way of speaking to me through music--I know He does that with a lot of people--but it's a special way for me to come closer to my Father and shut the whole world out, a way for me to stand before Him and actually listen to what He has to say. It was during amazing music that God hit me over the head. At Super Summer, we sang this amazing song called Glory to God Forever by Fee. It was this song that Christ used to give me a major wakeup call that I desperately needed. At first, when the song came on I was just singing along like I normally do, but it was when we got to the second verse that God really opened my heart to the song. The second verse says, "Creator God you gave me breath so I could praise Your great and matchless name all my days"--it doesn't say "God you gave me breath so that I could praise myself"--it says to praise His name. That's when it hit me. When was the last time that I praised His name and not my own? I couldn't even remember. That's how long it had been. We talked about God's glory all week long, and sang that song multiple times, and every time I began to understand more and more about the Father and His glory. It was in Rainbow, and in our Green School sessions, that the Father revealed to me His glory and the fact that everything in this world is for His glory. Never in scripture does it say that glory is to go to Reagan, but hundreds of times it says that Glory goes to God. Every single thing. All glory was and is intended for Him. The Father is Creator of all--and He is glorified in every thing. Even if we don't cry out to Him the rocks will! That's how amazing He is! That the rocks will even claim His glory!!


If I would have shut down just because I wasn't put in the school that I wanted, then I would have completely missed the Glory of our Father! How selfish I have been! All glory goes to God forever!




For everything comes from him and exists by his power and is intended for his glory. All glory to him forever! Amen.Romans 11:36




Therefore, accept each other just as Christ has accepted you so that God will be given glory.
Romans 15:7




All glory to the only wise God, through Jesus Christ, forever. Amen.
Romans 16:27




So whether you eat or drink, or whatever you do, do it all for the glory of God.
1 Corinthian 10:31




With all my heart I will praise you, O Lord my God I will give glory to your name forever!
Psalm 86:12




It's not about me. It never was and it never will be. I'm merely His hands and feet so that others may know Him and we all may give Him the glory He deserves! Praise the Father for He is good and perfect and glorified! Thank you God that you are God and I am not!